My mind races. For my sacrifice to watch over you was more than the mind could handle but released at the time before all was lost, only to save me once again. All around me I’m surrounded by darkness, unable to see a thing. I can “hear” the light but for I cannot “see” the path. I race around trying to find an escape while my soul screams at the life it was parted from. Left to stand where I’ve traveled along. Alone is where I was always meant to be. I can’t feel this to be any other way. For I hold my walls high to try for this life of mine. We have parted ways only in hopes to see each other again, I want you to know I was not ready for this to begin. Yet I would never to let you travel alone. We gained the knowledge of our presence only to die and grow from our existence. For a lifetime our paths have always been side by side, just blinded from the shores abide. Now only a river that now separates us, we have each gained and lost what the other needs. For when together we feel what it feels to be complete. Now to continue this path that unfolds only to reach for what we are too up hold. For if our souls are truly meant as one, we have to overcome from where we stood from. Death is never a pleasant thing, but it could be the growth of the most beautiful thing. We grasped onto what we need to know, just so we know what our future could hold. For in this moment, if you weren’t here with me, we would never remembered how it came to be. Apart, we must make our final stand as we fight for our last chance. As the years shall pass, we will fall from the skies. In pain, we both suffer from each others strengths to grow from one another weakness. To become whole means we must fight from where we’ve come, only to know where we’ve existed from. Catch you I will, as long as I know you’ve gave it your all, and I shall seek the same in return. For I would rather die than to see you ever lost again. For letting go is never again. Open your eyes as I have open mine, to see all and what has become. To feel and sense what we need. Let it guide us to where we need to be. Our answers to our questions will stand before us, do we choose to live our lives a lie, bathed in comfort and normality under the traditional rule of our souls vessel. Or do we break free to let death be our growth to the beauty beneath. What is truly alive and what’s buried beneath our feet. Paths crossed and now apart only to cross again based on our hearts. Apart but not alone. For maybe we shall join again, fully transformed. Ready to be whole once again. Or forever stand apart of our shores abide only to remember.
This is a poem and with it, I’ve created a mixed medium painting called “ Life & Death” The two ravens represent the two parts of our brain that are in constant war with one another in order to find a middle ground of peace and growth. You have to let a piece of you go in order to grow, you can’t let yourself be blinded by the truth or you’ll forget where you’ve been. We are only truly alone in our life journey.
I wanted something that spoke right from the soul. It needed it to be a mixed medium because I wanted to try and recreate the sense of touch with emotion. I used, paint and tissue paper for my mediums. The ripples of the tissue paper represent the constant motion for which our mind travels. It’s overlapping and constant.
The painting is still not enough, so I created the poem to go with it. Trying to figure out how I can combine them one day.
I truly believe that this is only the beginning to this painting….For there is much more in store for the heart to speak.
